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I just got back from my first visit to a psychologist. I feel good about it. It was a good conversation, where valuable thing were being said (both by her as myself). She explained some things about anxiety attacks and hyper ventilation, and their relation to stress and bio-rythmic disorders. This is not the end though — this is just the beginning. Next week, I will be contacted by phone for another appointment... not with this psychologist, but by... I forgot. Anyway, they're going to try and find out what's actually wrong with me, which is good... I mean, it's one thing I might be able to handle anxiety attacks and hyper ventilation in the future, but that doesn't say shit about why I'm experiencing them.
Maybe I just have to chill the fuck out... relax. It's actually one of the things we talked about. Maybe I just need to find a way to meditate — a way to control my thoughts and breathing (they're pretty fucking out of control when I'm depressed, or whatever you want to call it). I'm actually manic right now... was even more so when I was talking to her. What can I say, I didn't sleep at all... go figure.
On my way home I felt really good about the meeting, and I was saying to myself that I should write down all the valuable things, but my brain decided to empty itself or something. Anyway, I'm out of making sense credits now, so I'll just shut up.
Oh, yeah, dedicated server soon. W00T!
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